Last night, I was in bed...awake. My daughter, my husband, and even my dog were peacefully sleeping. My Tuesday night TV programs of choice were over, and I was awake! Insomnia? I doubt it. I wasn't quite tired enough to go to sleep so I was awake with my thoughts (scary, I know!). Why is it that when you are awake with your thoughts, you wake up more? And these thoughts...one has nothing to do with the other, or do they?
I found my self thinking about being pregnant again. I found myself thinking about traveling. I found myself thinking about laundry and grocery shopping. I even found myself thinking about my best friend's up coming wedding. None of these things have anything in common, right? Wrong! Can you say "money"?
Why is it that my sleepless nights are often attributed to financial uncertainty? We need money to have another baby...first I need insurance that actually covers maternity and that insurance doesn't cover all of the hospital expenses! Then of course I have to feed, dress and diaper that baby! These needs for a baby ultimately have me needing to partake in the shopping experience (which gives me anxiety all in its own). Shopping of any kind takes money to do it.
The rest are pretty self explanatory, right? Anyway, I have told my husband that we can have as many kids as we can afford. But what is the number we need to be able to afford baby #2? Really, how far off are we from that mark? Not too far, but just far enough for my mind to feel the need to wander!
I feel you there. I was having almost the same thought last night ( down to the best friends wedding)! We have decided once we get a house we can start a family...and we are looking at houses. Which then starts the thoughts about being a good mother! Scary how life seems to change over night!
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